I figure the only person that might read this would be Parker or other artists.

Anyway, this is a lament a grip. I use to think that I could be good at every art form that I picked up. As far as these form goes they are sculpting, painting, drawing and music (guitar and piano). Than I had an epiphany, I was becoming a jack of all trades and a master of none. I wasn't good at sculpting, painting, drawing and music because I didn't have the time to get good with all them and the resources.

Now I'm wondering now that most of the drama in life is done i.e. both parents dying, getting over depression, and finishing college. Will I ever get the passion to excel at something more than just things things I am naturally good at like finance, music and to a degree cooking.

The question is do I have the passion and the drive to be an artist that is exceptionally good? Why do I want to do that? Is it because my friends are great artists and I feel that I should be one to or just pressure from myself.

I wonder if I have any artistic exhibitions if they were covered up by me being in survival mode. I would like to discover if I have any latent art talent which I hope to discover in the next few years.

Hopefully this won't be a midlife crisis for me but a period of discovery in my past. Essentially, I am starting from square one, I have very rudimentary artistic talent. Maybe with God by my side I will know how far to go down this path and know when it ends. No one wants to waste their time pursing every talent in life to try to get good unless they are good at what they do and enjoy it.